fashionably late is always okay.

Sorry I'm a little behind this week, school is back in session! Anyways, here is my newest rambling. I actually spent a couple days pondering this blog. My roommate kept telling me to do it about her, but she's boring.

I spend hours on end sometimes just online social networking. and it disgusts me to see all these girls who are just begging for someone to compliment them. They think they need someone else's approval to feel happy or beautiful and that's so upsetting. No one can make you happy. When you think that's the case, it's because you've finally let yourself believe it's okay to be happy because you aren't alone anymore. No one likes being alone, obviously, and I believe in the fairy tale kind of love. I believe that someone CAN make you feel happier. But I just don't understand why people think they can't be happy without someone to tell them pretty words?

I don't understand why girls will always settle for boys who don't deserve them because it's just easier and they don't want to be alone. I strongly believe that you can't be happy with someone else until you're happy with yourself. I have all these goals because to me, it's far more important to be good enough for me. I know that when I'm good enough for me, then I won't have to worry about being good enough for someone else. It's not really a difficult concept. Don't change. Let him come to you, because you are beautiful and charming and he can't resist.

There is no one alive that is youer than you. :)

let's get a few things straight

In so many ways, I am still such a little girl. I love sparkles and love stories and Disney movies. I still get butterflies when I fall asleep on Christmas Eve.

I believe in many, many irrational things. I believe in fairy tale endings. I believe in miracles, and in a higher power(but I guess I am still hammering out the details in that one.) I believe in love, in no way am I saying that love is not real. It is the realest thing I have ever seen, felt, or known.

I have finally, after careful inner debate, stopped believing in love at first sight. Attraction at first sight? obviously. Interest at first glance? duh. You can love the sight of someone. But you do not love someone the first moment you see them. Disagree all you want, but I don't think it's humanly possible. Love is about the inside. About the real him or her. You love someone for the person they are, not the appearance they present. You fall in love with someone's heart, not their face or body.

So all these insane attention needing girls who insist on celebrating how in love they are on their 16 day-iversary, just stop. Slow down, be young, if you are so into him then learn who he is and fall in love like you fall asleep. "Slowly, and then all at once." (John Green)

I'll always be looking for that real, solid, forever love. Until then, I'll be living my own life and making sure I know myself before trying to be a part of someone else.