If you want to be happy, just try it.

Last night I had to tell my roommate that I take it all back.
All the crazy judgemental things I ever said about her relationships or decisions about guys.

I didn't get it. We had different priorities and I wasn't very good at respecting that.
I still stand by some of the things I said about not settling, but here it goes.

I'm trying this new thing. It's called being happy. 

I've always spoken my mind here. And I've always said that I want to just do what's best for me and makes me happy. So I'm doing it.

When I wrote all those blogs about being happy and not needing someone else and being independent and awesome(which was true at the time and is actually possible) I was in really complicated and lost places in my life.

I feel so supported right now by my family, friends, coworkers, everyone. I'm realizing that I can actually do it alone. But it might be easier with a little help. 

So like I said. I'm trying this new thing where I'm just going with it, and being happy.

I highly recommend it.

Miss me yet?

My friends think it's time to get back to my blog. I think it's worth a shot.

So, after this last week, I am exhausted, hungry, lonely, and a little desperate for something to do.
But I loved every single busy, demanding, beautiful, cardinal and gold, PR moment of it.

When I applied for VEISHEA, I was looking for anything to give me back what I thought I lost when I wasn't asked back to the cheer squad last spring. I felt like I lost all of the people I had counted on to get me through college, and I was back to the start. I had noooo idea what I was getting myself into. I am honestly so thankful that I got this opportunity. I was so nervous going into my interview that night and I was pretty positive they thought I was so weird. I kind of figured out later that weird was a recurring theme on the PR committee. I loved it.

All my non-#V friends probably HATE me. I didnt answer my phone, I was mean, I did not make time for anyone, and I even ignored a couple of them in public (on accident I swear, couldnt help it).  So guys, Im sorry and I still love you!

I got next to no sleep, but I was up all night giving fake angry glares to exec members that I couldn't have loved more. To anyone who took my angry looks and sassy remarks seriously, Im sorry. I was having a great time.

I could not have picked any better people to have spent the last week with. I dont regret a single decision. Except maybe parking in the lot I did on Friday, because Im now $160 poorer and lost a couple hours of carefully scheduled sleep recovering it. And everyone and their mom offered to drive me to go get it!

 Ive even been talking to my advisers about re-structuring my graduation goals thanks to a better understanding of what I LOVE to do. Everyone that I met was so fantastic, and I havent felt like such a part of something huge in a long time. So thank you all!

#VEISHEA love, cant wait for 2014.